more mumblings
you can never look towards others for happiness, it must be found within yourself. if you find it in others, it will fade from you, as happiness fades from others. i can promise you this, there is no plateau for happiness, it does not exist, it will come down. not to be confused with sadness, coming down from a level of happiness is not necessarily bad, it just means you weren't at the level you were before. now if you can take into account the awareness of this downstep from the level you were at previously, it may not be all the bad, especially considering that you can get right back up there to that same level of happiness that you were at before, but you know what, you can actually attain what you had before and even more on top of it. it's a very odd thing.
i wish i could remember my childhood from long ago. i remember seeing some pictures of when i was a baby, when i was a toddler and crawling around, grabbing drapes and curtains by the window, totally naked of course. i'm not often told of my past, simply because there's only a couple left who were around when i was a kid. my family friend greg whom i call uncle has told me that when he took me out to a forest i just took off running into the wild forest. he recalls that memory at least one out of six times we see each other.
your family, your love and your life is all we have.
support, encourage, listen to and love everything and every one you have in your life.
there is always seemingly a future, within reason of course. if there is no vision, you might not have much quality of a future. there is much to see, much to do and all of it is within your boundary. it's just a matter of wanting to do it at all.