let's delay

the thoughts at bay.that's what visiting my family feels like. it's just crazy how much of myself is taken away when i'm in this house and there's so much useless blabber. repeat yourself five times because you didn't say it clearly. then when you do repeat yourself, it's a little bit different and with a tone or an attitude. Didn't hear me? I'm just gonna repeat it really loudly. Don't understand? Repeat.

Ugh.

I can't do anything but be patient and tolerant. I don't want to be, but I am. What else can I do? I already left. I'm not even here for them.
You can't pick family, but I guess I have a decent one, especially compared to the others that are out there.